

* "Dynamic, brave Leigh emerges vividly in Pan's deft hand, and her enthralling journey through her grief glows with stunning warmth, strength, and resilience."- Booklist, starred review Pan has created a spellbinding narrative about love, family, and what it means to grieve."- Bustle "In this dazzling debut, author Emily X.R. A raw and brilliant debut."- Roshani Chokshi, bestselling author of The Star-Touched Queen

"My heart has never been more pleasantly devastated. "This beautiful, magical journey through grief made my heart take flight."- Holly Black, bestselling author of The Cruel Prince and The Darkest Part of the Forest "An extraordinary debut from a fiercely talented writer."- Nova Ren Suma, bestselling author of The Walls Around Us Pan's inventive and heart-wrenching debut."- Gayle Forman, bestselling author of If I Stay and I Was Here "Magic and mourning, love and loss, secrets kept and secrets revealed all illuminate Emily X.R. This is a very special book."- John Green, bestselling author of The Fault in Our Stars and Turtles All the Way Down Pan's brilliantly crafted, harrowing first novel portrays the vast spectrum of love and grief with heart-wrenching beauty and candor. And as she grieves, she must try to reconcile the fact that on the same day she kissed her best friend and longtime secret crush, Axel, her mother was taking her own life.Īlternating between real and magic, past and present, friendship and romance, hope and despair, The Astonishing Color of After is a stunning and heartbreaking novel about finding oneself through family history, art, grief, and love.


In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a new relationship with her grandparents. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird. Description A Time Magazine 100 Best YA Books of All Time SelectionĪ stunning, heartbreaking debut novel about grief, love, and family, perfect for fans of Jandy Nelson and Celeste Ng.
